Yearning In Vain

Once more I close my eyes

Hoping to see him again

Yearning to myself, yearning in vain

I am desolate without him

To my astonishment, I see him nowhere

I search for him everyday, all in despair

The sound of silence, the Darkness

Following me, leading me to emptiness

This pain I want to be eased

Pain I no longer want to conceal

He left, leaving a crippling effect on me

Leaving a mark that can not be erased

There's too much for the time to destroy

Too many retentives

It stings me, pierces me time and again

But I've learnt to live with this pain

Committing mistakes that I once forbade

The life Im leading is prosaic

I do not know of rapture anymore

I'll stop breathing if I dont see him anymore

Peeved at my condition

I attempt to destroy my life

To get him back, I still strive

No, he isnt sadistic

He knows not of sadism

He shot his words at me, being uniquely explicit

Let me alone to my oblivion

Let me close my eyes once more

Hoping to see him again

Yearning to myself, yearning in vain

Ever Ours

Sigh.

And there he walks

So perfectly

It pinches my heart to see him walk away

It kills me

Eyes red with pain, blood gushing in vain

Deep down, I know he cares, I know he loves

He wouldn't admit it

Deep down, I know he wants to come back

But he wouldn't

Inhale.

Darkness dwells in him

He lets her reside

Does he really need all of this?

Does he really need to do all of this?

'Yes', he would say

No more. Not anymore

Forever, he promised

And with the blink of an eye, broke it

It hurts him, kils him, too

Then why does he have to do all of this?

Why put me through it all?

He has that spark in his eyes

A diamond inside of his heart

That sparkle I've always wanted

A life that shines bright as the stars

He's killing it. He wants to.

Does he really have to?

Mesmerized, I always was, when I saw him

My heart skipped a beat when I knew he was sad

Love kills, slowly, murders

Does he want to be a murderer?

Then why does he have to do this?

He would laugh to make me smile

He would shed a tear if I wept

What he took with him, is my heart, my life

Not only did he take away with him a part of me, he has all of me

And forever will

I wouldn't blame him, for letting me lie on the floor, writhing in pain

He needed it, but never wanted it

It hurts him, it kills him, too

It isn't easy for him

What is his, is mine

What belongs to me, is his

Ever mine, he will be

Ever thine, I am

Ever ours

Exhale.